Today at Work

I have a fear. A very real fear. I only fear two things in my life.

One: sharks – so much so that I almost didn’t fly to Europe for fear of the plane crashing, landing in the ocean and me getting eaten by a shark. It is a very real fear. So much so, that I froze while kayaking and could no longer paddle because I was fearful a shark may take a bite out of the kayak – yes I was kayaking in the ocean.

The other… public speaking. I cannot for the life of me feel comfortable while standing in front of a group and speaking. The fear is odd as it changes each and every time. I have a fear of speaking to strangers – specifically because they may realize I don’t know anything. Plus, since I don’t know them, they scare me. But, the quirk is that I also hate speaking in front of my peers. This fear stems from being judged by them as I care about their opinions.

So you see, today was an awful day because I had to present in our staff meeting twice… that is a lot of public speaking for one day.