Ladies and Gents… It’s all my fault. I am getting really good at the “it’s all my fault” thing. In fact… I find it to be taking accountability for my life, my actions and therefore my results, that’s why “it’s all my fault”. This time “it’s all my fault” applies to my health and my funky eating habits.
To be clear. I want to be as healthy as I possibly can. I want muscle tone. I want to be able to run a marathon someday (still recovering from my 10k last Saturday). I want to be able to choose the healthy option when dining. I want to be able to reach health goals and then maintain them.
As of late I have been quite mindful of my health. Focusing on putting proper nutrition into my body, increasing my activity levels, drinking more water, focusing on my passions, balancing life better, communicating with a more open mind and a more open heart and setting new goals. With the litany of things I have done to improve my health I still have my sabotages. And I am going to call myself out right here, right now…
I want to be healthy, but I don’t get enough sleep.
I want to be healthy, but I snack constantly and it’s not veggies.
I want to be healthy, but I eat more bread than vegetables.
I want to be healthy, but I eat more sweet treats than fruit.
I want to be healthy, but I eat in the middle of the night.
I want to be healthy, but I don’t follow-through with workouts.
I want to be healthy, but I always eat my Doodle’s left-overs.
I want to be healthy, but I use condiments instead of spices.
I want to be healthy, but I eat more pasta than protein.
I want to be healthy, but I cannot leave food on my plate.
I want to be healthy, but I over-serve myself & my family, serving far more than our bodies need.
I want to be healthy, but I eat handfuls of Skittles as a mindless snack.
I want to be healthy, but I do not meal prep in advance.
I want to be healthy, but I just cannot give up donuts and cake and cookies.
I want to be healthy, but every time I get close to my heath goals I relax on my effort.
I want to be healthy.
How do you sabotage yourself? How do you cave to cravings? How do you forget will power and choose indulgence?
My hope is that I will start to be more mindful one sabotage at a time. I never want to become ridged in anything I do. I never want to remove the fun from food. I never want to walk away from balance. I never want to restrict indulgence.
However, right now I find myself reaching a goal and then letting go. And that, my friends, bugs me to no end. I feel good in my skin, but I want to be able to be consistent with my efforts. I finally have realized that healthy eating and living should be my priority, my routine and indulgence should be a treat, a special occasion. Now I just need to find the balance in that.
* Photo Credit Baker by Nature