BEST. DAY. OF. MY. LIFE!!!!
On July 1, 2010 my daughter Avery Grace was born. After 25 hours of labor, 1 hour of pushing and an emergent c-section Avery blessed this world. Weighing in at 7 pounds 8 ounces, with a height of 20 inches… My angel entered this world.
The labor started at roughly 9pm on June 30th and ended at 10:17 pm on July 1st. 25 hours of pain, medication, attempts to deliver, nerves, fears and joy. What a roller coaster ride birth is.
In being 100% honest, I did not feel connected to Avery when she was first born. In part because the medication was seriously intense, especially after 25hours and because I did not hold her for nearly two hours post delivery. There is a connection I feel is made when a baby is born vaginally. Seeing the baby immediately, holding the baby immediately, bonding immediately.
Our hospital stay was lovely, with a rotation of nurses and a slew of very important guests, we went home on July 4th. The emotion started the minute she was locked into the car in her car seat. I cried the entire drive home. The entire day after arriving at home. It hit me, I was a mom and the house wasn’t as clean as it should be, I wasn’t as prepared as I wanted to be, I had a life I was responsible for, I can’t slack off anymore, there is someone so much more important than me and this person needs me to be the best me I can be… I’m not the best me I can be, not yet…
After a couple weeks at home, with support of family, friends, doctors and little miss Avery, I pulled out of my sadness. We got into a routine, we venture out on the town for a quick bite with friends or a stroll around Target. We spend days with grandma and we have visited the office a couple times to introduce the little one to those who watched her grow.
Tomorrow we hit the 4 week mark and I will be honest, I still have HUGE fears, but I also have HUGE LOVE. I never knew my heart could get any bigger. I never knew I could feel more love than I already felt… I never knew the magic that is motherhood… I am so in love and I look at her and smile from the inside out as she is my life’s blessing.
OHHHH!!! CONGRATS!! She's gorgeous!!! I'm so happy for you and have been wondering how you've been doing! So so happy for you!
I will be getting back into blogging now… The last couple months I got LAZY and I have so missed the calm of blogging.
Thank you… I LOVE HER!!!