Doodle and the Daycare

This week is going to be a wild week. Full of emotion and joy. Filled with tears and laughter. Filled with heartbreak and my heart over flowing…

This week is my last week of maternity leave. Actually, this week mixes work with maternity leave with heading back to work full-time. I work at a wonderful company that allowed me to work part-time from home throughout the month of August. Best gift they could have ever given me. It allowed me to bring some money into our home and it also kept my brain active in retargeting. I think this was the best option to transition back into work as well. No jumping off the deep end and back into work after two months off.

Today was my final day as a remote employee. Working from home, in my jammies, with my little doodle bug hanging out right next to me. I got to watch her sleep, hear her little voice talking to me, see her smile and touch her toes, head and fingers whenever I wanted to. I had a lump in my throat every time I thought about not being able to look over and see her, right there, right next to me. Tomorrow is my last day on maternity leave. I will be making memories with my baby girl. If the weather is beautiful, I plan on taking her on a walk in her stroller, enjoying a meal out with her and holding her close as often as possible. Wednesday is September 1st and will be my first full day back to work full-time… There is beauty in this day as my mom will be watching Avery as she has for the entire month of August. I will leave her in loving arms with a full heart and sinking back into my job. Thursday is the day that will challenge my heart most… This will be Miss Avery Grace’s first day of “school”. She will be starting daycare at the amazing Bright Horizon’s, with her amazing teachers and the amazing Mona.

The things that make me sad – she will be in daycare where I will be missing moments of her life, she will start to have other women in her life more hours of her waking moments than me her mom, she may get those daycare colds that people so often speak of and selfishly – I want to be with her all the time… The things that make me smile – her daycare is directly across the street from my office (I can see her windows from my windows), she will be building her immune system and socializing in a healthy environment, she will be there with a co-workers baby boy (their friendship may grow and grow and grow) and selfishly I will get to be a woman in my career again (I miss my job and my co-workers).

So, here is to a busy week of memory making… Avery’s 2 month doctors appointment, lunch with friends and getting used to a new routine and getting through emotional hurdles.